And I thought love would solve everything. But there is no such thing as a knight in shining armor. No one ever rescues you from your own misery. You pray alone for the light to shine through. I thought I would find the answer in your arms. But I didn't. I miss you. But you don't have time to talk to me. I don't know where I lost myself. I ran away. From everything that was familiar. And now, I feel so lost, I don't think I know where to begin. I don't even have the energy to walk. Even as these days go by, I am aware of a dismal cloud which hangs above me which tells me to give it all up. I don't want to listen to it but all I see is darkness. A long time ago, I saw myself, vibrant and happy. And now, my tears scour my face and I can only see the foggy distance. Help me God. I have lost my way. Fear has paralyzed me. I want to run away...far away from obligations, duties and all who I know. How did I become a slave unto my own thoughts. These chains cut through my skin and suffocate me...take me away to a secret place, I do not want to think of anyone or anyplace but oblivion